"You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star." - Nietzsche
"Go to the deepest darkest place you can permit yourself to be and see if you can find a little light up in the top right corner?"
Yes, I saw that little light. For years, I thought that light was something by the name of resilience. What I didn't know was that the light was really joy. How could joy exist in this extraordinarily dark moment? How could joy be present in this awful and terrible time?
I will never forget that moment. I will never forget that feeling deep inside of me of being full of this darkness. This thicker than molasses type of feeling where I truly felt stuck. Trapped. In a prison of my own mind. This time of my life was certainly the darkest, but now that I look back on it, it seemed to have light as well.
However, there had been the presence of light. The only issue was, I wasn't attempting to find it.
It's complicated, the idea of returning back to this place. There are so many things that are buried there that I'd rather not go back and explore. But I know that this is the place that I need to explore. This is the place that I need to discover because there are many gifts of learning there. It's very easy to be scared of this place and to wonder why you would ever want to go back, but that's the place where the magic is.
Like all dark places, if you bring enough light they can be seen for what they truly are. But even in darkness itself, you have the ability to be a presence of light just being someone who is full of compassion and love. You might not have an external source of power, but you do have an internal source.
Into the depths we dive.
Lantern in hand.
"Go to the deepest darkest place you can permit yourself to be and see if you can find a little light up in the top right corner?"
Yes, I saw that little light. For years, I thought that light was something by the name of resilience. What I didn't know was that the light was really joy. How could joy exist in this extraordinarily dark moment? How could joy be present in this awful and terrible time?
I will never forget that moment. I will never forget that feeling deep inside of me of being full of this darkness. This thicker than molasses type of feeling where I truly felt stuck. Trapped. In a prison of my own mind. This time of my life was certainly the darkest, but now that I look back on it, it seemed to have light as well.
However, there had been the presence of light. The only issue was, I wasn't attempting to find it.
It's complicated, the idea of returning back to this place. There are so many things that are buried there that I'd rather not go back and explore. But I know that this is the place that I need to explore. This is the place that I need to discover because there are many gifts of learning there. It's very easy to be scared of this place and to wonder why you would ever want to go back, but that's the place where the magic is.
Like all dark places, if you bring enough light they can be seen for what they truly are. But even in darkness itself, you have the ability to be a presence of light just being someone who is full of compassion and love. You might not have an external source of power, but you do have an internal source.
Into the depths we dive.
Lantern in hand.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is a professional life coach at AYKME Life Coaching and writes daily articles on the journey of life at The Words Of Encouragement Dive into these Letting Go Quotes for more inspiration in letting go and healing the past.
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